A work in progress…

 

Are the eyes able to see themselves…?  Yet seeing (awareness) “sees” (knows) that it sees, sees its own seeing…  This seeing is not of the eyes…

Metaphor, we must “move” with words such as these, allow them to carry us past (and prior) to words, and then further, past and prior to thought, emotion, memory, imagination…   To discover ourselves here and now, both source and destination, where all true seeing (hearing, sensing, feeling) arises, and subsides…  In our willingness to be here, this empty, silent, vast and empty moment eternally unfolding, we may begin to realize that all we see, hear and feel, all we sense, all experience, comprehension and apprehension, is in truth our own true self…

What we call waking up is simply an ever dawning discovery and realization of this…  Because we have believed ourselves separate, it is a discovery that can only be made through and in relationship…

Awakening only becomes possible as we become truly human… And we become human when and as we begin to really see that we are sentience aware that it is sentient…   And so incredibly paradoxically, all of creation awakens in every moment (and movement) of a human awakening…

The living body is animal, yet life is eternal, expressing in and as these manifest dimensions we call the world through form, body…  Life is both prior to and beyond all form… Life becomes human through our own dawning awareness that we are life, life in relationship with itself, infinitely greater than mere bodies lost in identities of separation…

Through each of us and all of us life itself is awakening, unfolding…  It is a movement of silence rather than merely objective, relative, phenomenal… Yet life is also inclusive of everything, of the relative, objective, phenomenal, of body, form, of each of us and all of us…  All sentient expressions of life are participant in the body of what some call Christ, this ever unfolding extension, creation of God without any other…

Child of God, eternally transcending yet also form, body, forever becoming, ever more beautiful, engaging, awe inspiring, infinitely expressing through form…  In other words, God is also body, also form, always extending…

Yet also always beginning, always a beginner…  Every moment, every movement, fresh and new…

A sort of felt sense that has only a tenuous connection with emotions and sensations, though they can be metaphors for what cannot ever be known as something other, separate…  Our world, the universe and the whole of manifest existence is essentially and most fundamentally an infinite, unending, incredible, ever extending, multidimensional metaphor… A conversation without any other…

All these words merely an attempt to point to what cannot be said…  The pointing finger does not know the moon…  Only knowing knows what is being pointed to, and it knows because it now knows that it knows… Without any agency at all…

Prior to all words, ideas, sense or sensation, is this knowing, without object or other…  Still just words, knowing simply is, and knows that it is…  It is what writes these words, it is what hears these words, and it is what groks these words…

This knowing is all of us, all of life, and all of the universe…  And, paradoxically, this knowing or awareness that is all of us, all of life and all of the universe is simultaneously knowing it is also, uniquely, each of us, each aspect of life, and each aspect of the universe…

What some call waking up is an ever deepening and infinitely unfolding realization of Being, through, in and as each of us, that is also simultaneously knowing itself as all of us, all of life, all sentience, and all of existence…

All of us and all aspects of existence unique, yet simultaneously the same…  The identity of separation (ego-mind-body) cannot understand or grasp any of this… We can only allow ourselves to become what we always and already are

Being knows itself, without any need of another, and without any need to grasp…  No collection of thoughts in the beliefs of separation can “do” it…  All effort to “do” merely reinforces an identity of and belief in separation…

In other words, being is knowing, prior to and beyond all grasping or understanding, yet totally inclusive (knowing, loving, accepting) of all that grasping and understanding seeks, and by seeking denies…  This is why surrender is such a central part of all deep teachings…

God, or what some call God does not make any of this complicated or hard, instead it is we who do that… This is neither good nor bad…  It simply is, part of the nature of our shared journey…

What all beloveds, in their heart of hearts, yearn for most of all is actually the most simple and obvious thing of all… It is always “hiding” in plain sight, always now, always here, and always and already what we are…

Our attachment to beliefs in identities of separation, to all these illusions we collectively call the world, ourselves, others, things, is all that obscures what is most simple and most obvious…

Yet it is not about “getting rid” of anything or “going beyond” anything… Instead, we are called to “see” and “hear” through all of this, in other words through the world, ourselves, others, and seeming things …

Seeing through in this way is both the embodying and embodiment of creation, an eternal turning toward what cannot be turned away from…

The end of spiritual bypassing…

Such a “turning,” slowly and sometimes instantaneously (the sudden and gradual schools of Zen), becomes an ever unfolding dance of transformation of what we have “made” in the beliefs of separation, into this Love that holds and accepts all, even our own beliefs in separation…

In the light of love, darkness never was… Zen’s gateless gate… Or perhaps an ever unfolding joining of Creation with its self that was never apart…

Always paradox…  Seeing and hearing through all these appearances, our projections in the beliefs of separation, also begins to “transform” our shared world into greater and greater means of seeing and hearing through it, beyond object or subject, in more and more incredible, joyful, loving, and beautiful ways…

More and more it becomes the means of God to see and hear Herself… Transformation in this sense is really just the dissolving away of obscurations, our long held and accumulated clouds of belief…

Seeing is the metaphor for the light that dissolves the clouds…  In this dissolution we realize more and more we are the light…

In this sort of knowing we are exploring here, there is no coming, no going, no loss, no gain, no birth, no death, no destruction…  Instead creation becomes what it always has been, without an opposite…

And so amazingly, through this knowing or seeingshared with each other, the whole play of coming, going, loss, gain, birth, death, creation, destruction, is transformed into what it has never ceased to be, infinite, incredible, magnificence, creation without opposite, life beyond all these words, grandeur without the slightest impingement of grandiosity…  

Simply what is…

Death and darkness were always illusions…

Creation, light, love, truth, beauty; life has always been and always will be all there is…

John Fridinger

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